Welcome to my life

Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

So, I know it's kind of cheesy to use song lyrics in a blog post, but this song says exactly how I'm feeling right now. I'm tired of playing the social games where you smile and act like everything is all hunky-dory because the people around you don't really care about anyone but themselves. I'm tired of being the nice person that invites everyone over for food and games only to have my home disrespected by so-called adults acting like freshmen in high school. I'm tired of people saying "we should hang out more" only to have them forget about me when I'm not in front of their face. I'm tired of sticking my neck out for people I know, trying to be nice and make them feel welcome, only to have none of those courtesies offered to me in return. I'm tired of making all these efforts to be social only to ultimately have no social life. If I wanted to have no social life I wouldn't have made the effort to get to know people when I moved here. I could have stayed the way I was in Louisiana, a social recluse. So, why do I continue to torture myself trying to have a social life?

Counting down

I am officially counting down the time I have left in my Master's program at the University of Denver. I have been tourturing myself with full-time school and two part-time jobs in order to finish this degree in less than 2 years. So, for the benefit of all who know me, I will graduate 5 months from today! Let the countdown begin!!!

Giving in

While trying to fall asleep last night I decided to finally give in and start my own blog. I have been following the blogs of several of my friends as well as family and figured the beginning of this new year was as good a time as any for me to jump in the bandwagon. I have no idea what you can expect in reading this, but I hope all who do take the time will find it enjoyable.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!